Something a little different tonight.
It was your average Friday night in the South Bay. I had just come home from a fun loving day of holding warm bundles of love to rush and get ready for the company holiday party in Marina Del Rey. I was doing my best to look as amazing as possible as it was a pretty big night for the boyfriend and I. My mother came into my room (yes I was living at home), and asked if she could come.... Mom and I were partners in crime when it came to clubbing, and bar hopping. I was very excited about this new idea for my evening, and when my step-dad came home we tried and tried.... and tried some more, to convince him that he should enjoy some adult beverages and some trashy party songs of the mid 90's. He could not be swayed, even by my mother's energetic flashing and telling him,"he'd get lucky". So I proceeded to finish getting ready and informed my mom that I would call her when dinner was over, prior to the dancing and see if there was any progress in getting my step-dad to come along. I also let her know that I would be staying at Kevin's house that night, albeit, he only lives five houses away.
So the evening commenced.... dining and drinking and drinking and dining... finally around 9ish I guess I called home to see if she was going to be able to make it, She had fought the good fight, but with no success. At approximately 11 Kevin had, had enough of the crowd, he's not a big people person... so we headed home. However, I was far from done with my evening, I wanted to dance a little more so I dropped him off and went to my favorite watering hole in Hermosa Beach, Besties. I stayed for an hour or so and then headed back to Kevin's (the guilt had set in). It was now approximately 1 am and I was heading down my street and drove passed my house, only to notice my parents bedroom lights were still on, ODD!!!! But whatever, I had other things to do, mainly Kevin.
After a night of sleep there was a knock on the bedroom door, Kevin's roommate Darrell, "yo, Kev, is K in there?" I responded Yeah Darrell what's up, it was approximately 9 am at the latest. "You have a phone call"......Odd as no one would EVER call me there, no one knows the # there and more importantly they would have no business calling for ME there.
So I quickly get up and go out tho the kitchen to take the call, as you can guess this is before common place cell phones, this is 1995. I pick up the receiver and it is my step father, very huffy..... I ask what the problem is, and the words that are to follow would change my life forever!
"Your mom didn't come home last night!"
"what are you talking about, Jeff?"
"your mom, she went shopping last night and never came home!"
"I'll be right there!!!!"
I hung up and went running down the hall yelling at Kevin to get up and get dressed we needed to be at my house NOW!
Less than 10 minutes later we were walking in through the garage and running upstairs. I found Jeff standing in the living room looking frazzled. I asked what EXACTLY had happened. He told me that my mom apparently wanted to finish his birthday shopping and went out to the mall, and had yet to return.
Now, being the daughter, of a police officer, my first instinct was to call my dad and ask what we needed to do to file a missing persons report. He gave me all the "special" words to use so we would get the appropriate treatment, and I called Redondo Beach PD immediately. within the half hour there was an officer at our door ready to take a report and any current pictures we had of her as reference. (So surreal)
The next step in this miserable adventure was the single worst phone call I have ever had to make in my life. I called my sister Samantha in Yucaipa, asked her if she was alone, as she has two daughters who at the time were 7 and 3 I believe. She said she was alone and i proceeded to tell her that our mother was.... Missing. Now, I could handle the screams from her the frantic questions, I was still holding it together pretty well, Da'Nile... It's not just a river in Egypt, my friends. I was fine until I heard one of the girls in the background say, "what's wrong mommy, what's wrong with Nana?" then the fear set in, the severity of what could be at stake set in.
I asked her to come down and she was immediately on her way. In the mean time Kevin and I started combing the mall parking lots for my mother's car, of course in retrospect a futile act. When Samantha got there we went down to the police station to meet with the two investigators who would be handling the case, detectives Sturgeon, and Seigler. They informed us that our best net was to let the media in on this information, we would be able to use the public eye to help find her. They were very specific when they said, "the media will be your best asset, until we find her, then they will become your worst enemy, no matter what the out come is."
It didn't matter, we needed help and fast. so immediately all Los Angeles news channels were notified, 2, 4, 5, 7, 9, 11, 13.... That's a lot of coverage. We "staged" a search at the South Bay Galleria Mall, it was demoralizing and looking back it was for show and nothing more. By the time the 10:00 and 11:00 news aired we were the lead story on every channel, so strange to see yourself on TV in that medium. the phone was ringing off the hook and tons of people had come to the house to offer their assistance in an fashion possible, including the women we would later find out had ulterior motives.
By Sunday morning I knew there were certain things I needed to do, first call work and tell them I wouldn't be in on Monday unless things changed drastically in this present 24 hours. Then there was a knock at my front door, it was my ex-boyfriend, forget calling, people just started showing up. He asked if I wanted he and his friend to go search up the Angeles Crest highway, as a young woman from the South Bay had been found there recently murdered. I didn't quite know what to say, so I just said YES. Another friend was a manager for Kinko's and she offered to make color copies for us for free. My mother's company that she had been employed with for many years offered to do the same.... In the end I think we distributed over 5,00 flyer's from Santa Monica to Long beach, you couldn't look anywhere with seeing my mom, except it wasn't her, just a picture.
On the hour every hour for the next two days we were the lead story.... Mind you it is a week before Christmas in LA, great lead story huh, way to boost the holiday spirit. So Sunday comes and goes, we have people bringing food, like we're gonna eat, volunteering to pass out flyer's, and to sit with Jeff since he was incapable of leaving the phone, in case she called, or in case someone called.
Monday we are out and about passing out flyer's again, I decided to go to 3rd street Promenade and hit up the masses there. There, something strange happens, I see a couple coming out of Champion's restaurant, and I attempted to hand them a flyer, granted there are hundreds of hand bills that go out there nightly, but the gentleman snubs me, puts his hand up and brushes me off. Mind you I have Channel 11 with me taping this, and I say, " I hope its never your wife or your daughter that's missing, and you need the help." His wife immediately reached out to grab a flyer to help out and apologized for his rude behavior. The next encounter was actually quite humorous; a homeless man came up and asked what was going on, I told him my situation and he asked, "if I find her what do I get?" We had no reward set up yet so all I could offer was my undying gratitude, and he said that wasn't going to get him anywhere so he declined to be of assistance. Monday night we were offered a spot on Channel 8, the city council meeting coverage channel. So my sister and I went down and plead with the public to please come forward with ANY information regarding my mom's disappearance. By now we were offering a $10,000 reward.
I had my best friend come down for support also. I had to beg my sister to go home now. Her daughters have seen us on TV all weekend and they needed to be with their mom, especially since there was no new news in the last 48 hours. She needed to go and be with them and I promised that I would call if there was any new information. So she left and Kevin, Christa, and I all decided to call it a night. Before turning in for the night I looked outside where all the news vans were (they had been lined up across from my house all weekend). It was approximately 10:30 pm and there were still two vans outside which was odd. But we needed sleep, so we turned out the lights and went to bed.
Just when we had settled in, I heard the front gate....What the hell? The ONLY people that should be here should be the police, we aren't doing any interviews this late. So I went upstairs.....It was Sturgeon and Siegler.....There was news.......
My step dad and I sat at the dining room table to listen to what they had to say...they had received an onslaught of calls after out appearance on Channel 8, who knew people actually watched that stuff? They have found my mom's car. They wanted to know if we wanted them to "watch the car for the next 12 hours to see if anyone returns to it", or move in on it now and get whatever information they could from it. My step-dad jumped at the idea of "watching the car", I had no real idea so I agreed, I was stunned that they had found the car.
They informed us that at noon tomorrow there would be a press conference but until then we needed to pretend as thought there was no information, so we needed to continue passing out fliers and canvasing neighborhoods. That was rough. By the time we got to the house it was noon and there house was FILLED, there must have been 50 to 75 people there, friends family, volunteers, co-workers. We were watching the story unravel on the screen and it was so strange, then the two officers came in the house.
They stood in front of the crowd and announced...."there is a body in the trunk." They stated that they couldn't identify the body and didn't know if it was male or female, they needed someone to identify the body. I sat in my chair watching everything move around me, my sister had flung herself onto the living room floor, screaming and crying, my step-dad buried his face in his hands and I started mumbling something about its not her, its not her...There's no way.
The next step was to call my dad and ask if he could go with my step-brother and identify the body. My sister wanted to do it, I had to tell her that was the worst possible idea she had, had in years. So my dad agreed to come down. At about 3 or so he got there and he and my step brother went to the LA County Coroner's office, I was down in my room, with all my friends and my sister, don't remember what time it was I just know it was dark outside when my dad got back to the house. I was sitting on the end of my bed and my sister was on the phone near the top of the bed on the phone and he sat in between us, we asked her to get off the phone and she finally did. My dad put his arm around me and looked at me so gently as the words he was about to say were going to such a harsh blow.
"It's her, baby; I'm so sorry"
I didn't or couldn't accept it , ad the only thing I could think to say to my dad, the man who had been married to my mom for 13 years, was...."Are you sure?"
He just nodded his head, and held me.
What will come next is the aftermath. What happens to a family after a tragedy like this, how a community comes together, and a family falls apart.
thank you for being patient while I write this, it wasn't easy and took a lot of time.
I hope for those of you that know me, this gives you a little insight to my life. For those of you that don't now, you know more about me than you ever needed.